pinyi

don't mind me.

2011-08-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

I PRETTY MUCH WANT TO RIP THIS BITCH'S HEAD OFF. YOU FREAKING FREAKING BITCH.
JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE DOING WELL IN IH AND LA DOES NOT MEAN YOU ARE BETTER THAN ME OKAY. GET YOUR FUCKING FACTS STRAIGHT. IM SO FUCKING ANNOYED AND ANGRY AT YOU NOW, I WANNA JUST LEAVE YOU GUYS IN THE DUST AND ABANDON THE ESSAY
WHY THE FUCK AM I YOUR FRIEND.
THIS IS WHY YOU AND MISS ANNOYING NO.2 HAVE NO OTHER FRIENDS OUTSIDE THE CLASSROOM. FUCKING RUDE AND HOLIER-THAN-THOU LEH THE BOTH OF YOU.
FUCK YOU OKAY. I HOPE YOU DIE AND I HOPE THE TEACHER CRITICISES YOUR POINT THE MOST. FUCK YOU.
YOU'RE FUCKING HILARIOUS. YOU'RE PISSDE OFF AT ME BECAUSE IM NICE TO ANOTHER FRIEND? YOU KNOW WHAT, FUCK YOU AND GO AND ROT IN HELL BITCH

clearly i have anger issues.

FACSSSSS

2011-07-09T16:14:00.002+08:00

I've been wanting to blog about SLC, but I can't, How do you summarise such a beautiful experience into just words? It needs to be felt and experienced.

I never thought I would be this attached to facs or to SLC. But now they are an undeniable part of me that I think will last with me for forever. These people are amazing, they're like family to me now.

I will remember all the different outings, the stupid inside jokes, the stupid mind screwing and everyone now being mindscrew experts.

Yesterday after 1000 (which was AMAZING and really touching, but I didn't cry, cause the guy facs were making me laugh instead, lol silly people.) and after dinner and laughing till my stomach hurt and we were all tired and we just sat in the circle and actually had comfortable silence. It's hard to reach this kind of silence even one on one. We were just happy spending time with each other. It's amazing how comfortable we are with each other.

Sure, there still some facs I haven't gotten to know that much yet but I can't believe this, but I don't know them that well, but I love them and I love being a part of them.

I really really hope this fac family will last a long time.

2011-07-06T23:07:00.003+08:00

Reblog and bold what applies to you.

•I’m loud at times.
•I’m sarcastic.
•I cry easily.
•I have a bad temper.
•I’m easy to get along with.
•I have more enemies than friends.
•I drink coffee.
•I clean my room daily.

My appearance:

•I wear makeup.
•I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
•I wear contacts.
•I wear glasses.
•I have/had braces.
•I change my hair color often.
•I have a piercing.
•I have small feet.

Relationships:

•I’m in a relationship now.
•I’m single.
•I’m crushin’.
•I’ve missed an ex before.
•I’m always scared of being hurt.
•I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
•I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
•I’ve been in love more than two times.
•I believe in love at first sight.

Friendships:

•I have a best friend.
•I have at least five REAL friends.
•I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
•I’ve beaten up a friend.
•I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
•I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:

•I’ve been on a plane.
•I’ve taken a taxi.
•I’ve taken a city bus.
•I’ve taken a school bus.
•I’ve made a speech.
•I’ve been in some sort of club.
•I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.

Music:

•I Listen to country.
•I listen to R&B
•I listen to pop.
•I listen to techno.
•I listen to rock.
•I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
•I download music.
•I buy CD’s.

Family Life:

•I get along with both of my parents for the most part.
•My biological parents are still together.
•I have at least one brother.
•I have at least one sister.
•I’ve been kicked out of the house.
•I’ve ran away from my home.
•I’ve sworn at my parents.
•I’ve made my parents cry.
•I’ve lied to my parents.
•I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
•I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
•I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.

Hair:

•I’ve been brown.
•I’ve had highlights.
•I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
•I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
•I’ve been blonde.
•I’ve had black.
•I’ve been red, orange and pink
•I’ve been light brown.
•I use conditioner.
•I’ve curled my hair.
•I’ve straightened my hair.

mm-hmm.

2011-07-05T21:51:00.002+08:00

I see why you like her better. Why you pick her over me. She's.. so confident. So pretty. She's so effortless. She doesn't give a damn about what others say. The teachers all love her. She's a natural leader. She's friendly and sociable. She's the A++ student. She can be friends with anyone and not be afraid of backlash. She's sweet. She's nice. She's easy to talk to. She makes every feel good. She isn't afraid to smile and be unglam, because, it's not in her looks to be unglam.
I hope she makes you happy.

for my reference:

2011-07-04T15:09:00.002+08:00

New shows I want to watch:
Nine Lives of Chloe King
Switched at Birth
Game of Thrones
The Lying Game
Camelot

Shows I need to catch up on:
The Big Bang Theory
SYTYCD
Leverage

Shows I'm tracking:
The Glee Project
Pretty Little Liars

Shows on a break:
CSI: NY
CSI: Miami
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation
Glee
How I Met Your Mother
American Idol

please leave the lights on;

2011-07-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

This is one of my favourite bands okay! :P

I LOVE THIS SONG.

2011-06-26T00:53:00.000+08:00

thank you PLL soundtrack.

Hey stranger or may i call you my own
i know i don't know you, but there's somewhere I've seen you before
whatever your name is, whatever you do
there's nothing between us I'm willing to loose

Just call me if ever our paths may climb
I want you to call me under these darkened sky's
whoever you love, whoever you kiss
the wandering between us I'm willing to miss

now I'm drifting out over deep oceans
and the tide won't take me back in
and these desperate nights I'll call you again and again

there's comfort, comfort in things we believe
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/p/peter-bradley-adams-lyrics/between-us-lyrics.html ]
other than danger, wanting the things i can't see

where ever you live now, where ever you walk
there's distance between us I'm willing to cross
now I'm drifting out over deep oceans
and the tide won't take me back in
and these desperate nights I'll call you again and again

now I'm drifting out over deep oceans
and the tide won't take me back in
and these desperate nights I'll call you again and again

Hey stranger or may i call you my own
I know i don't know you, but there's somewhere I've seen you before.

FACS SQUEEZE.

2011-05-31T22:43:00.001+08:00

Now everytime I hear this song, I think of facs. 17th SLC FACS ARE SO DAMN COOL, CAUSE WE'VE GOT THAT X-FACtor!

someone please tell them who the eff i is;

2011-05-16T22:05:00.002+08:00

Not really. I would just like to say a big "I TOLD YOU SO" to myself. I keep effing things up. Things always get effed up.
No matter if I tell you straight to your face you always break my promises, you keep breaking them. I'm such a pushover right. Because you know the next day I'll say sorry. I'm always the one saying sorry, even when I'm not at all.
One day you will regret everything you did to me. You will. And then you'll realise you never appreciated me being around, and all you'll have left is regret. Effing regret.

You, with your words like knives. You call people this and that, when in actual fact, it's the classic case of pot calling kettle black.
I'm just frustrated with myself. A lot.
No one really cares anyway. This place is even more secluded than my twitter or tumblr.
I think I like it here. Where no one gives a damn about what I say, so I'm in free liberty to speak now.
Why would anyone care either? I'm just an insignificant part of their lives
Do you know, how do you get up from an all time low?
Mm, I shall go listen to some The Wanted to high myself up again.

I have an impressive .gif collection.

2011-04-19T20:38:00.001+08:00

that needs to be used, so watch me unload my gifs on this blog, heheheheh.

some days...

2011-04-18T20:57:00.001+08:00

make you feel like crap.

call me up if you are gangsta

2011-04-18T11:26:00.003+08:00

Post about jiti and comps will be coming up soon, I promise

I sometimes wonder if I'm the most selfish girl in the world, or just the most underappreciated.
Today I was sick, and obviously not in a good mood. Then I receive a call. And I flashback to a time when it was tradition that everytime someone is sick, we would call up that someone to find out how he/she was.
I still do that.
And for that one fleeting moment, I really thought someone was calling me up to ask me how I was, to check up on me.
But no, they were only calling me up so that they could... do something for someone that I know will never ever happen to me, and that I can only dream of, and will never get.
I know it's not their fault, but I don't feel good about this either.
I don't know.

2011-04-17T15:07:00.001+08:00

JAY MCGUINNES *_*

okayyyy

2011-04-09T21:38:00.003+08:00

okay I'm quite sad cause the previous post was supposed to be a lot longer but blogger chewed up my post.

anyhow, I loved Thursday's training. First training in a long time that I've ping-ed (omg, that's like a pun or something.) so hard. Because we had the whole damn carpet to ourselves and Pan all to ourselves too. (that sounded wrong.) It's rare to actually have the whole carpet to yourself. You can have actual conversations across the carpet and everyone will know it's them you're talking to. I love ba zhan -ing the carpet! Not that I hate the danxiang people or anything lah, haha.

Jiti was amazing on Thursday, cause I think we all put in our utmost effort into each full taos. And we actually managed to work on music and pei yin yue in 1 training session, which is quite an accomplishment. I really like our jiti music, it's really symbolic of us or something. When I hear that song, I will think of jiti. I forgot what I wanted to write about Thursday other than this. I think although this is the year we feel the least prepared, it's my favourite year. Why? Because this is the result of 3 whole years of hard work and perserverence, of hugs and disagreements, of encouragements and pushing each other to be better and better. And out of it all, we are one sec 4 jiti 2011. We are one collective group effort, performing the same movements, to the same music, to the same timing, to our utmost ability. And that to me is more important than gold and silvers. 'No regrets' is more important for me, because it's our last year. I just want to do everyone proud, and do myself proud. I want to be able to shrug whatever the result is off, and still celebrate the 3 years together as one jiti.

The atmosphere today at training was pretty nice. Today during training, Zhou came and totally shocked us all. But she was so helpful! And actually went step by step with us to help us improve. I think that we have a chance of at least beating half the groups. Seriously. I still need to work on my flying jump in the first part (I swear I managed to do it on thursday....) but other than that I've been able to correct the rest of my mistakes. JUST NEED TO WORK ON MY JUMP ARGHHHHHHHHH.

Moony, Esther, Hilary and I had an interesting discussion today. About the biggest decision we ever made as jiti. I think what really sparked it was when Zhou made a comment about... yeah. I feel kinda mean, but it's got me thinking though, what would have happened if we picked the other option? I guess it's one of the few things we'll never find out.

5 more days bbs, 5 more days to no regrets. Going by my 3 wushu mantras:
1. Trust the carpet.
2. Even if you lose, the most important part is getting back on your feet.
3. Leave the carpet with no regrets.

NYWS 2011; a legacy/

2011-04-08T22:15:00.002+08:00

I think some wushu people don't like me. ): If I accidentally don't say hi to you, it's not because I hate you, but because my vision is usually impaired in the mornings! I don't mean not to say hi. ): And I'm not as entertaining, but it doesn't mean I'm boring! ): but anyway, that's not the main point of this post. Thursday was a greattt day.

MASTERPOST; 2011 personal milestones

2011-03-27T00:33:00.001+08:00

This will end in december 31st I guess! Then I'll start a new one. It's not really accurate anymore, since I might forget things, but we'll see where this goes.

100 books;
1. Adrian Mole : Aged 13 3/4
2. 13 Reasons Why
3. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
4. The Seven Dials Mystery
5. The Book Of Happiness
6. Why Didn't They Ask Evans?
7. Murder on the Orient Express
8. Evil Under the Sun
9. Curtain
10. Thirteen Problems
11. 4.50 from Paddington

30 movies;
1. The Tourist
2. I Am Number Four

i think you are a joke.

2011-03-12T18:10:00.002+08:00

a joke, you hear me? just when the one before dies down, you come around. and you're failing bad at it, okay? so stop trying.

5 things to you/me/anybody/everybody/nobody:
1. I MEAN MY MY YOU'RE LIKE PELICAN FLY.
2. stop trying so hard.
3. everything's gonna be okay (it's alright it's alright)
4. stop being so freaking self-praise and trying to get compliments. i see through ya.
5. my condition is real.

2011-03-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

when you say "I'll be there for you",

it's a promise.

it shouldn't be broken.

it gets better guys.

2011-02-27T17:41:00.001+08:00

what can you do when your good isn't good enough
and all that you touch tumbles down?
cause my best intentions
keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
but how many times will it take?
oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

i think my cat's been reading my diary.

2011-02-27T17:03:00.001+08:00

or at least, Glee has.

Push me up against the locker
And hey, all I do is shake it off
I'll get you back when I'm your boss
I'm not thinkin' 'bout you haters
'Cause hey, I could be a superstar
I'll see you when you wash my car

...

Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up-up in the air
Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up, 'cause I don't care
You can throw your sticks, and you can throw your stones
Like a rocket, just watch me go
Yeah, l-o-s-e-r
I can only be who I are

YOU WANNA BE A LOSER LIKE ME. <:

2011-02-23T21:06:00.001+08:00

Relieved. I can finally heave a sigh of relief. I have a friend in New Zealand, and I forgot if she lived in Christchurch or Wellington. I was so scared I would lose her, but thankfully she's in Wellington.

Just things like this make you realise how fragile human lives are and how easily they can affect us even though they're miles away.

2011-02-20T16:17:00.001+08:00

Okay, we're just gonna pretend that this song did not make me cry. I feel so sad for Josie, when it all ends between her and Jen. Also, this song.... I wish someone sang this to me like Jen did to Josie. Sucks being unappreciated.

to nyws sec 2s:

2011-02-17T21:32:00.002+08:00

Hey juniors, I think you'd probably won't read this, but this post is just to clear my mind a bit. Maybe one day when you all stalk me and find this blog, this post will give you some relief.

Hey Sec 2s. I know I'm not the closest senior with you all, and I probably don't talk to you guys as much as Qianyi or Esther do, but I just want to tell you something.

We're fighting for you. We are. The reason we know you guys are upset is because as we said, we observe. We observe because we care. We've known since day one. The sec 4 batch is really bonded, so we talk to each other a lot. And we know we're a good bond as a batch, that's why we go and look at our juniors.

Since school started, the sec 4s have been meeting up before training. Or at least most of us. We are all involved in everything that happens. T-shirt design, Comps schedule, wushu matters, election matters - we know everything.

There's no need to feel scared about us knowing everything. I think it's better thna us not knowing at all.

We worry for you guys. We hate to see conflicts happen, because they can break a CCA. We're not balming you either. In a conflict, both sides have responsibility. We're here both sides, and we're fighting to get you heard.

Today you found out "we know everything". Today some of you cried in front of me for the first time. Today I saw you the saddest you've ever been. I've always thought of your batch as like the cheeriest batch of juniors. You guys always smile, and always have fun outings, and laugh all the time. So it made me sad today that you guys were sad.

Every training since day one, your sec 4 seniors have been discussing about your issue. We want to help, but we're not sure how. I think there's some sort of telepathy going on in our batch, because I'm very sure today during training, wanqing and qianyi were appealing to xue for you. And the rest of us who knew talked to you, because we didn't want you to lose faith.

Personally, I've felt your way before. I'm not the strongest one in my batch. Everytime the coach says we have to try-out for jiti, or we have to ce-shi for jiti, I get nervos jitters, because I know how badly I want in, and how badly I will break if I don't. Jiti is one of my motivations every wushu training.

Never ever lose faith, sec 2s. If you don't know "who to trust", at least trust your batchmates. Trust everyone of them. If there's no trust, there's no Jiti. Trust that everything's going to be okay. Trust that your seniors will fight for your rights.

And even if there's no this year, there's always next year. And trust me when I say before the sec 4 batch leaves wushu, we will fight for you guys. We'll keep fighting. So don't give up on hope either.

love, your senior, Ping Ghee. NYWS batch 11 <3

2011-02-17T15:28:00.000+08:00

so fuckig depressed.

ugly grades are not good.

Caleb/Hanna, OTP. (master post)

2011-02-16T20:44:00.004+08:00

Caleb/Hanna is my new Pretty Little Liars OTP. EEEEEEEEEEEE (heart shape)

Over the next few episodes I'm gonna reupdate this, cause seriously, I haven't felt so much shipper feelings.

I’ve shipped them since day one. I ship them more than I ship her with Lucas. Their relationship is so… cute! They have the most snarky conversations. He helps her even when she tells him not to. She stands up for him when her best friends judge or make fun of him. She helped him when he needed a place to stay, he helped her mom escape someone out to ruin her business, and through it all, really, they don’t expect anything out of each other. They didn’t expect love for sure.

Quotes;
Hanna: You know that thing I told you not to leak?
Caleb: She found out anyway?
Hanna: …She’s never gonna speak to me again.
[Hanna wipes her tears]
Hanna: You don’t have to sit here and listen to this. Just… go take your shower
[Caleb starts up the stairs then sits back down]
Caleb: It can wait.

I think it hurts.

2011-02-16T20:35:00.002+08:00

Directed to not just one person;

I think it hurts to feel like I'm not wanted, not needed anymore. That you feel fucking sick of looking at me. Like you treat being around me like a chore. Like I'm a disease you can't avoid.

I think it hurts to know you're happier when I keep silent. That the only reason the last time that I actually ____ ___ ____ ___ ____ is because I bumped into them by accident. That I still remember that till now.

I think it hurts how selfish you are. Even she knows. Everyone can tell. How you treat me like a fucking kindergartener. Like how you always assume I don't know what to do, when the truth is, I just want to make sure.

I think it hurts how you don't deserve it. You don't deserve any of it. I'm not saying I deserve it, but I think other people do.

I think it hurts how obvoius you are. How easily thrown aside I am by you. How you pretend everything's normal, but you're cursing me behind my back.

I think it hurts how I'm always second. How I'm always choice number two, the person who you can fall back on just in case.

I think it hurts how everyday is a draggy chore. How no day can be just happy and perfect. How my day can go "smoothly".

2011-02-15T22:35:00.002+08:00

Today I've been thinking a lot about how I would like my life when I move to Jurong.

I think I'd like to swim more often. Hold parties. Attend parties. Walk dogs.

I want my own bedroom. I'll paint it dark blue, then paint stars on the ceiling. I want a long french window, and a cosy corner with pillows next to the window where I can read books and do homework at. And a small flight of wooden steps leading towards the cosy corner.

Mmm, daydreaming.

2011-02-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

I like having mini debates with myself. It's like there's two of me. O:

we'll sing to the rhythm of love

2011-02-11T23:44:00.003+08:00

Rhythm of Love - Plain White Ts
When I Get You Alone - Glee
Bills, Bills, Bills, - Glee
That's Not my name - The Ting Tings
Rocketeer - Far East Movement
I Won't apologise - Selena Gomez and the Scene
Just Dance - Lady Gaga
Only the Good Die Young - Glee

2011-02-11T23:32:00.002+08:00

I DONT BELONG. I JUST DON'T BELONG, OKAY?
I DONT WANT TO BELONG EITHER, OKAY?

NO ONE HAS TRIED TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I BELONG.

i hate the way you brush your hair...

2011-02-07T22:26:00.003+08:00

this post is sort of in tribute to the movie 10 things I hate about you, which is an awesome movie, btw. Everyone should go watch it.

I hate the way you always forget.
I hate the way I'm easily forgettable.
I hate the way I can't forget.
I hate the way you can.

I hate the way you don't care.
I hate the way I care.
I hate the way you pretend to care
I hate the way you won't.

I hate the way you always pretend.
I hate the way I do too.
I hate the way you pretend everything's okay.
I hate the way that for me, it's not.

I hate the way I can never be perfect.
I hate the way you can.
I hate the way you think you're perfect.
I hate the way you are.

I hate the way you make broken promises.
I hate promises you can't keep.
I hate the way when we make promises
You never live up to it.

I hate the way you never listen.
I hate the way I do (to you).
I hate the way I'm not worthy a listen.
I hate the way you won't.

I hate the way you're never there,
Even when you say you are.
I hate the way I'm always there,
When I say I am.

I hate the way you don't trust anyone.
I hate the way I trust you.
I hate the way you break this trust.
I hate the way it's built up again.

I hate the way you are so honest
I hate the way you say it.
I hate the way it hurts so bad.
I hate the way it's true.

I hate the way you treat me.
I hate the way you do.
I hate the way I feel like crap,
Eveytime you do.

And the worst thing is, I don't hate you at all. Not one little bit, not at all.

i see you drivin round town with your stupid ego, and im like FORGET YOU. --|--

2011-02-06T22:50:00.002+08:00

Remind me, never to go out shopping with you, ever again. In my life.

The day started out great. Everything was great. I thought, as long as it was a group, we'd be fine.

But thanks a lot.

Thanks a lot for judging my outfit. Little did you know I took an hour to pick it out cause I wanted to impress you.

Thanks a lot, for pointing out for everyone to see that I have a small bust. It's not even something I'm embarassed of, but I felt embarassed, cause you made it sound like it was a que1 dian1 of mine. Thanks.

Then you think I can't hear beyond the changing room curtain. You comment on my thighs. Thanks a lot.

Then I realise the only dress you've criticised is the one I wear. The rest, you just keep saying it's pretty, really nice. Everyone in the group thought the dress looked nice on me. Your face told me otherwise.

Why must you do this thing to me?

I know, I'm not pretty.
I know, I'm not tall.
I know, I'm not the most fashionable.
I know, I can't be who you want me to be.

Just leave me alone.

this is another "you"

2011-02-03T00:45:00.002+08:00

(see how effed up my life is that almost everyday i'm posting something like this?)

No. You don't tell me to grow fatter for CNY. It's the freaking first day of the new year, and your first wish to me is for me to grow fatter? FATTER? Not 'gain more weight'? And when I reply with a "-_-" you don't 'innocently' say "what?"

No. Just no.

I'm not going to gain weight so I can make YOU feel more adequate, so that I can be less adequate.

If I'm going to gain weight, I'm going to do it for myself, and not for YOU.

You always tell people to screw themselves over, and you're an insincere friend. I'd like to dedicate Katy Perry's Hot'n'Cold to you, cause that's how our friendship's like. When we're with company, I'm like shat to you, and when we're alone just the two of us, you talk to me damn much.

No thanks.

another explanation.

2011-02-01T22:30:00.002+08:00

thank you. I love you guys a lot too. but while I feel comforted, I feel ashamed of myself, so I've moved the posts to my other private blog. Maybe, in the far future, I'll look back on it as a reflection of my past self. And I will laugh.

Excerpt from my private blog: "But I'm not alone. I have 212ers. I can always count on them to have my back. And I'll always have theirs."

pretty pretty please; part 3

2011-02-01T19:21:00.005+08:00

wtf has this blog become? A ranting stop?

an explanation

2011-02-01T07:06:00.001+08:00

contrary to popular belief, pretty pretty please is not a fiction. It's a non-fiction okay. The You in each part might change, but for tyhe past two parts, the You has been the same person. You can keep guessing, but I ain't telling

Btw, hi Esther, my only reader ;_;

pretty pretty please part 2

2011-01-31T20:40:00.004+08:00

And bullies are not good people. Bullies are people I hate.

pretty pretty please.

2011-01-30T16:39:00.002+08:00

I didn't mean to lash out at you during class. I really didn't.

But you're the one who has been comparing my looks to cartoon characters that aren't even human, been saying how jealous you are of person 3 when there's only 3 of us hanging out, you've been staring at me like I have pink gum in my hair, you've been criticising my body shape.

And then you insist of taking pictures of me on a day I don't feel like my best. I tell you to stop, you laugh it over and just continue.

In my head, all I'm thinking is, please stop.

I'm already not the most confident person ever. I eat a lot, my backbone is screwed up, my hips are uneven, my thighs have muscles that bulge, and my face shape is a square.

If you don't stop, I think I might die.

I bet you never knew I was this weak. That I needed so much superficial encouragement. But the truth is, I do.

So go on and judge me. Go on and laugh at me. Just to let you know, it'll hurt. It all hurts. Always have, always will.

handle me with care;

2011-01-25T21:48:00.001+08:00

I think I will miss NYWS'11. ):

2011-01-13T21:27:00.001+08:00

Dear Taylor, Y U SO FLAWLESS.

press play

2011-01-10T17:14:00.001+08:00

TRUST ME YOU WONT REGRET PRESSING PLAY.

more gems

2011-01-05T18:04:00.002+08:00

H: "I have like twilights on moments, funny dreams, and just really unexpected stuff. Was I dreaming, did that really happen, did I imagine that whole thing just happened-"
L: "-Did Lucas actually kiss me when he thought I was asleep."
H: "Yeah. Things like that."
L: "I thought you might have been awake. And then I thought if she was awake and she didn't scream, that was a good sign."
H: "I was too surprised to do anything."
H: "I thought that we were friends. Look, I really like you Lucas."
L: "I feel like you're brekaing up with me, but we were never together."
H: "Look, I'm being honest with you. Besides, I already have a boyfriend."
L: "Well, I think you deserve better."
H: "Well, that's between me and Shaun. Look, I like you way too much to lie to you. And, that's something I used to do all the time."
L: "Couldn't you just keep lying for old time's sake?"

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Aww, Hanna/Lucas ;_;

so many gems from pll moments later

2011-01-05T17:39:00.001+08:00

so many gems.

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Ar: "Did you ever wish you could go back? Would you still talk to me at the bar?"
Ez: "If I'd just left the bar then, you'd just be the pretty girl that sits two rows from me in class, and I'll just be the teacher that teaches you."
Ez: "Do you? Ever wish you could go back?"
Ar: "No."
Ez: "Then we don't go back. We move forward, together."
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glee on x factor

2010-12-31T16:48:00.002+08:00

LOL I KNOW THEIR PERFORMANCE WAS NOT PERFECT BUT IT STILL GAVE ME GOOD CHILLS. EEE SAM/SANTANA I'D SHIP IT. ALSO FUINN SO IM QUITE HAPPY AND DID YOU SEE THE WAY DIANNA BOUNCED ONTO THE STAGE FLAWLESS BEING!!

Anyway, even if you don't like Glee, check out Harry Shum Jr (Mike Chang) and Heather Morris (Brittany)'s awesome dance moves. kiiilled it! :D

that's not how it works.

2010-12-31T16:42:00.002+08:00

Right now I feel my emotions are balanced on a thing called trust.

Do I trust you? Yes.
Do I trust them? No.

You see how all this is is driving me crazy? I need to trust you, but if you're with them, and I don't trust them, I can't trust you either.

Someone tell me why people have to be so bitchy.

post 600~

2010-12-30T18:03:00.001+08:00

when you're me, life is always in balance.

2010-12-28T15:44:00.003+08:00

I hate how bad things always come after good things. How a day can't be just perfect, how there's a twist to every happy story. I hate how my smile can turn so quickly into a frown, how my heart can suddenly sink so low, how I can go from looking forward to something to wanting to look away.

Maybe it's because I can't forget things very well. I hold grudges, even though I say I don't. I remember how I get hurt, which is how I learn. I just don't want to get hurt again and again.

a list

2010-12-20T23:05:00.002+08:00

mostly for my own reference;

TV show returns, in order of return:

Jan 03- HIMYM (<3)
Jan 03- PLL (EXCITE.)
Jan 06- CSI:Crime Scene Investigation
Jan 07- CSI:NY
Jan 09- CSI:Miami
Feb 06- Glee
Feb 16- Survivor (love the new concept)
Feb 20- TAR (OMFGGG IM SO FREAKING EXCITED CAUSE A LOT OF MY FAV TEAMS ARE GONNA BE HEREEE)

Unspecified: Hellcats, ANTM, Project Runway

I AM EXCITE. also, thanks to my new favourite channel, FoxCrime, I now have a newfound love for Dexter and Numb3rs. (Esp Numb3rs) Good shows guys, good shows.

2010-12-17T23:20:00.002+08:00

Life is crazy and tiring and all too exciting. Not that I'm complaining or anything. I don't get how some people have so much time to actually complete stuff, when I feel like I'm going out every 2 days this whole holiday! (Again, not that I'm complaining, cause I'd probably go crazy if I was bored with nothing to do, but I've had to top up my ez-link twice this month. TWICE!)

And I still got uh, a lot of things to complete by the end of this holiday.

1. Uh, all my holiday homework?!
2. Reflection writing for NYAA
3. Personal interests stuff x2
4. Prolly have to start PSL orientation stuff

I feel like this is the craziest and busiest December hols I've been through. Needs gettting used to. And there are exciting stuff coming right up I do not want to miss! ):

(I still miss Taiwan. I cannot drink milk tea, or else I think I might wallow in missingness.)

418/427

2010-12-11T23:30:00.002+08:00

This is going to be a completely fangirly post, so ignore if you must.

This week's episode of CSI:Crime Scene Investigation has to be one of the best episodes I've watched of all three. Excellent acting, and great plot, that keeps me on the edge of my seat and totally sucked into the episode. Loved it, loved it.

Patrick Stafford and Jason Butler Harner, two complete nobodies, were amazing actors. Completely believable. They should appear on more shows/more CSIs! Also, I love Sara Sidle and Captain Jim Brass in this episode, they acted out their scenes beautifully. And we actually didn't see Langston at all! Yay!

Wonderful way to end the year, with wonderful episodes (loved Wild Life for its sub-plot).

teenage dream ftwz

2010-11-11T11:02:00.002+08:00

teenage dream is probably the prettiest song of the year.
yeah, i say prettiest.

listen to all three vids. Gah, it's so freaking pretty. *_* I have a personal bias to the boyce avenue one, because it's less about sex and more about love.

csi: crime scene investigation

2010-11-09T22:27:00.002+08:00

"Funny it should be blood you're talking about. Isn't it supposed to smell... iron-y?"

Haha, I love the witty one-liners thrown around in CSI:CSI, the feel-good storylines and endings of CSI:Miami and the methodology of CSI:NY.

Fav character of each CSI->
Miami; Er, definitely Ryan Wolfe. Heehee, he's awesome!
Crime Scene Investigation; NICK STOKES! idk. something about him makes me laugh everytime he shows up on screen.
NY; Adam Ross or that cool detective police officer guy.

fun fact #84932879

2010-11-06T20:29:00.001+08:00

-> When I watch CSI, I'm not most scared about the death scenes of the victims, but I start to freak out, hyperventilate and shout "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" the most when the CSIs lives are in danger.

quote book

2010-11-01T22:37:00.001+08:00

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we’re told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment… you never gave up hope.

let's do the time warp again

2010-10-31T15:56:00.002+08:00

Glee does Rocky Horror!
I seriously thought the episode was damn cute, and Emma/Carl is starting to grow on me. Carl is so sweet to Emma, and I can tell Emma really loves him. Same goes for Mike/Tina. Hee, so much for my Wemma and Tartie shipper heart.

Gems from the episode:
"I'm confused, and not in a cool, Inception kind of way."
"It's gonna be ab-ulous" (oh sam, don't stop with all your stupid puns.)
Santana repeatedly wanting to get with Carl.

KURT: So, what are you going to be for Halloween this year?
BRITTANY: I’m going as a peanut allergy

Brittana being creepers.
"Give me some chocolate or I will cut you."
LETS DO THE TIME WARP AGAIN

who are you? who who?

2010-10-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

My head has been playing a mash-up of "Who are you" and "Won't get fooled again" for the whole day, (ie; the theme songs for CSI:CSI and CSI:Miami respectively) (I like calling CSI:Crime Scene Investigation as CSI:CSI for some reason.)

...

I have a (healthy? unhealthy?) obsession with CSI. My daily night routine? Watch an episode of CSI, then go to sleep. Or else I'd feel wierd. CSI doesn't scare me anymore. I look forward to my daily dose of CSI.

AND I BADLY WANT TO GO TO THE SCIENCE CENTRE EXHIBIT. CSI:THE EXPERIENCE. MEEEP MEEP MEEP.

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Everyone's leaving already! I think by now Hilary and Qiuhao would either still be in airport or already on the plane. And then Seryeen's gone. which leaves...
7 people left in batch'11.
oh my goodness.

muscle ache and blistery fingers hurt like crap. and tomorrow is PT day, so more PT. yayyyyy. D:

2010-10-26T23:22:00.001+08:00

I just about watched the scariest CSI episode ever (CSI Crime Scene investigation, season 11, episode 4) and it's like 11:23pm at night.

I best be heading off to sleep. o_O

2010-10-23T16:47:00.002+08:00

(all i want to do now is get out in this pouring rain, lie down on the grass and cry.

nobody fucking understands me.)

2010-10-13T20:54:00.001+08:00

1. "Mine"
2. "Sparks Fly"
3. "Back to December"
4. "Speak Now"
5. "Dear John"
6. "Mean"
7. "The Story of Us"
8. "Never Grow Up"
9. "Enchanted"
10. "Better Than Revenge"
11. "Innocent"
12. "Haunted"
13. "Last Kiss"
14. "Long Live"
It is set to be released worldwide on October 25, 2010.

SPARKS FLY SPARKS FLY SPARKS FLY SPARKS FLY!!! EEEE! I'm so glad she's listening to her fans and putting it out!
Of the 14 tracks, Mine, Sparks Fly, Back to December, Speak Now and Innocent have already been performed/leaked/released. EEEEEE

Bloody excited. Wonder if the Platinum edition will come out in time for Christmas?

dear glee, why so creepy?

2010-10-10T16:53:00.002+08:00

I've had 3 instances of Glee coincidence this weekend. It's freaky.

1. Saturday at night, while studying, I suddenly sang out "New York, concrete jungle where dream are made of~~~ There's nothing you can't dooooo~" (influenced by epi 1 of Glee) then suddenly felt like turning on the radio, and CHILLS DUDE, CHILLS. The song that came on was Glee's Empire State of Mind (ie, the song from which I was singing)

2. Today at the park, I was feeling really dejected about my exams, and wanted to bash my head against the nearby tree, then suddenly from a fair nearby, came Don't Stop Believing, Glee. Thnaks glee. :')

3. A speshul DEER sent me a really sweet and encouraging sms, and what did my itunes immediately shuffle to? I'll Stand By You - Glee.

I'm scared guys. CHILLS.

don't get TRAAAPD

2010-10-03T23:24:00.001+08:00

THIS IS AWESOME. WATCH IT. WON'T REGRET.

why i love blg reason no. #409485

2010-10-03T19:37:00.002+08:00

Cannot embed. ):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jIojcU7VI_w&feature=related

(I feel kinda failed as a BLG fan cause I didnt know about this till now. -_-)
(In my defense, it wasn't even on Martin Says, so harr.)

2010-10-01T03:30:00.001+08:00

1. why do we like to hurt so much?
2. i hate growing up.

i love swarkles. here are some gems.

2010-09-26T00:23:00.001+08:00

Barney: Let's be clear: I don't love Robin, okay? I just... miss her when she's not around, think about her all the time, and I imagine us one day running towards each other in slow motion and I'm wearing a brown suede vest.

Barney: How will you feel when he sees you without all that makeup?
Robin: I don't have any makeup on now.
Barney: Holy crap! You're beautiful!

Barney: I'm not a New York Yankee. Any other night, I would try to convince you that I was, but I'm not. I'm just a regular guy, who's in love with the woman who just walked out. And she's... never gonna feel the same way.

katy perry wins bonus points for doing this srsly.

2010-09-23T20:05:00.002+08:00

2010-09-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

Friends are like colour pencils, they colour our lives. I may not be your favourite colour, but I hope you will need me somewhere to complete your picture. (:

i have a mighty feeling

2010-09-19T11:20:00.002+08:00

-> that makes me want to laugh because your status is practically dissing your own self.
-> that you're avoiding me.

~

2010-09-15T18:57:00.001+08:00

don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got till its gone?

(from some song)(someone help!)

now, for some happy stuff!

2010-09-14T18:26:00.004+08:00

picture of epicness:

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~!!!!! <3333333

Neil Patrick Harris and Taylor Swift!!! MY FAV MALE CELEB AND FEMALE CELEB TOGETHER!!! OMGOMGOIMGOMGOGMMGOMGOMGOMOMG *dies happily*

2010-09-14T18:24:00.001+08:00

Day Ten: One confession

1. When I bury my head to sleep, sometimes I'm not sleeping at all, but crying. <: It's the perfect excuse for red eyes.

listography

2010-09-12T20:55:00.001+08:00

LISTOGRAPHYღ
or
http://listography.com/fruit (copy into your browsers)

What is listography? Think of it as a mixture of the words autobiography and lists.
So it's basically the inside of my mind in lists.

Excerpt;
•If I were a month, I'd be October.
•If I were a day of the week, I'd be Friday.
•If I were a time of day, I'd be 12am.
•If I were a planet, I'd be Earth.
•If I were a sea animal, I'd be a dolphin.
•If I were a direction, I'd be East.
•If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be a sofa.
•If I were a historical figure, I'd be Princess Diana.
•If I were a liquid, I'd be Coke.
•If I were a gemstone, I'd be opal.
•If I were a tree, I'd be an apple tree.
•If I were a tool, I'd be a stapler.
•If I were a flower, I'd be lavender.
(more)

Yeah. <: If any of you get listography accounts, add me! hehee, so I can add you guys back. I've added a food cravings list and another about me list.

2010-09-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

1. <:
2. :S

pretty much.

♥ ♥

2010-09-11T12:58:00.000+08:00

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
12 hearts.

morning after

2010-09-11T00:35:00.005+08:00

Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.

'Cause it's past midnight, and I have no idea whether it counts. <:

DAY SEVEN: 4 TURN OFFS
1. People who smoke. ):
2. Dissing my friends is a big no-no
3. Sucker-ups
4. Fake people

DAY EIGHT: 3 TURN ONS (LOLOL)
1. Chocolates
2. Guitar playing
3. Hugs and kisses

MAFMAFMAMFAFMAMFMAFMAFMAFMAFMAF

down down down down to number 6

2010-09-09T23:12:00.002+08:00

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

SIX AWESOME PEOPLE?

1.-5. You should know who you are. <:
6. Batchmates!!!!!!!!! (one exclamation for each of you lovelies)

And yeah, I'm cryptic like that. If you want to know exactly the five, just ask me. not here lah, on msn, im on prolly like 24/7. And I DO tell. so do ask.

SPILL time daily; day five

2010-09-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

SIX THINGS I WISHED I NEVER DID
1. Quit ballet
2. Not walking around during CCA exhbition day
3. Not apply for _________ or _________? (although my life might be worse if I did)
4. Do badly for PSLE
5. Take History
6. Said those things to you. We could've been good friends.

i missed day three + that's what im here for

2010-09-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

DAY THREE; EIGHT WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
1. Just be nice
2. Don't ever pretend to be someone you're not
3. Treat all your friends with respect. Old and new.
4. Be easy to be around
5. Give hugs. (:
6. Give love to everyone (:
7. Don't act cool lah. Be spontaneous.
8. Open your heart to me baby~ I hold the lock and you hold the key~ (Madonna!)

DAY FOUR; SEVEN THINGS (i hate about youuuuu (omg, who remembers this song? xD)) THAT I THINK ABOUT
1. How screwed up my life is
2. Wushu?
3. Classmates
4. ____&____
5. What-if s
6. Food
7. Sleeeeeeep.

To someone who hardly reads my blog anyways;
Goodbye Los Angeles you said with some regret
I'll do my best to find a way to help you to forget
I'm glad you made your way back here to find a better day
Seems like you're getting a little closer to okay

And if you need someone just to be around
Help put the pieces back that you finally found

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less
Or you want a little more
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for

I heard you saying that you're finally feeling free
Blowing kisses to the distant memories
Lately I've caught you smiling a little more
You're beautiful, and I'm all yours

And if you need someone just to be around
Help put the pieces back that you finally found

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less
Or you want a little more
That's what I'm here for
That's why I can hold you just as long as you'll stay
I can tell you what no one would ever say
That it's all right to admit you were wrong
Before you know it, all the scars will be gone

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less
Or you want a little more
When you need someone to find you
When you're hiding from it all
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
Oh yeah

Well, I actually always watned to actually SING out a song for people when they're upset. (because that's the way I roll). I think it's the influence of Glee and Disneyshizz and Liz. I'm not sure, but one day I would like to pick up my guitar and sing for someone.

2 days of zombieism.

2010-09-07T20:46:00.004+08:00

My first two days as a zombie! sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Monday;
Physics Reme, then Chem Reme. Mr Chong was really funny and shiz cause of his shirt and.. well, his Mr Chong-ness.
But the most important part was rehearsal.

We were lousy. As compared to seniors. And we had lack of communication and no music.

in other words, TOTALLY UNPREPARED.

I felt so disappointed. Not in others but myself, because I totally didn't think of calling Yeewin beforehand to check with her. Or confirming music, or anything. It's not technically in my job description, but we all take responsibility.

I just hope we can sucessfully wow them on Saturday. I pray we will.

Tuesday (today)
Today training was good training. (: As in we did do ji ben gong, but it was greatly reduced, and we even got a pep talk from Xue about what went wrong ytd blahblahblah. (no doubt Mr Teo's work.) Anyway, jiti was somewhat productive? Okay, we were talking quite a lot, but we refined a lot of our moves. Yay us!
And rehearsal in the rooftop hall was awesome. We pretty much got EVERYTHING done in a day! which is awesome. Even ending pose, which still reminds me of Broadway in some way. Moony agrees.

SaturdaySaturdaySaturdaySaturdaySaturdaySaturdaySaturdaySaturdaySaturdaySaturdaySaturday

:( / :) ?

google earthhhh

2010-09-05T21:18:00.004+08:00

Day One: Ten things about yourself.
Day Two: Nine things you want to say to nine different people right now.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

DAY TWO; NINE THINGS TO NINE PEOPLE
1. Esther-> Don't pangseh me tmr
2. Callie-> I still want to eat korean rice cake *_*
3. Wan Lin-> I'm sorry ;__; I'll be your slave for the whole of tmr, I promise
4. GY-> YOU ARE MEAN. *shoots hearts at you*
5. (unknown)-> What happened? :/ Do you hate me now? If so, why?
6. Grace-> REPLY MAH EMAILL
7. (unknown)-> I wish I had a friend like you.
8. Britneyyyy-> Good luck out there ;_;
9. Liz-> WHERE ARE YOUUU.

<: busy week ahead everybody. Hang on to your seats.

(right now im downloading gogle earth cause i want to play with it. LOLWTF *shoots self*)

life.

2010-09-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

today made me realise how many beautiful things in the world there are. and how these things take time. they don't usually sprout over night.

I'm happy. (:

tumblr challenge

2010-09-04T21:17:00.005+08:00

Day One: Ten things about yourself.
Day Two: Nine things you want to say to nine different people right now.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

I know I've done something similar before, but this should be fun?
If I start today, I'll end by holidays end. YAY

DAY ONE; TEN THINGS ABOUT MYSELF

1. I'm a girl.
2. I'm straight.
3. I don't like papaya.
4. I love money
5. I love mondays. (no monday blues for me!)
6. I love Swarkles. :D :D :D :D :D
7. I don't like Chinese
8. I dislike most SIAs.
9. I love you. (: (yes, even you gy~)
10. I love swarkles very much

Emmy opening 2010

2010-08-30T17:45:00.002+08:00

List of celebrities in order of appearance (in case you guys didnt know):
Jimmy Fallon (Host)(the one driving the car)
Lea Michele, Chris Colfer, Cory Monteith, Amber Riley (Glee) (left to right (:)
Tina Fey (30 Rock) (the one with the glasses)
Kate Gosselin (Dancing with the Stars) (one in the wierdo dress)
Have-No-Effing-Idea-Who-The-Dancing-Guy-Is
Betty White (The Proposal/Golden Girls) (old ladyy)
JANE LYNCH (Glee) (the one wearing the tracksuit throwing the slushie)
Unknown (Lost) (the kinda fat guy highfiving Jimmy Fallon)
Nina Dobrehv (Vampire Diaries) (the girl who jumped out from nowhere)
Joel McHale!! (The Soup) (guy who grabs the camera)
Tim Gunn (Project Runway) (guy wearing tuxedo who changes the clothes and says his classic line, "Make it work")
Randy Jackson (American Idol) (haha, the plump black guy playing the guitar)

At 6:10 you see Matthew Morrison (acts as Will Schuester on Glee) acting like a proud teacher. AWWWW.

2010-08-28T11:52:00.002+08:00

If you’re alone, I’ll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I’ll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I’ll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I’ll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I’ll just be me.
-Quote-book @ tumblr

Just remember this.

2010-08-28T00:40:00.003+08:00

What I'm thankful for in these 40 minutes past midnight.

1. Different time zones. (thanks Liz, you're a gem. I'm so glad I met you)
2. Cookies
3. Youtube (been watching big brother. TEAM RAGAN & BRITNEY RAWR)
4. My handphone wallpaper. (If you don't know what it is, it's a picture of my loves, my batchies.)
5. My handphone screensaver (Similarly, if you don't know what it is, it's a picture of Callie and I)

I hate being Libra-n sometimes.

2010-08-27T21:19:00.003+08:00

it's like you give me a life raft, then puncture a hole in it once i get on it.

im still alive, but im barely breathing.

because I love you.

2010-08-27T20:59:00.001+08:00

instant cheer me up fo sho.

batchies are the best.

2010-08-24T20:25:00.002+08:00

Today was a boring and unhigh day. Nothing made me happy at all. I just realised I hardly even smiled, except for the walk back to class from the quadrangle.

Then I went for training. BATCHIEZZ ARE SO AWESOME. WHERE WOULD I BE WITHOUT YOU GUYZZZ.
I mean, training was tough because of the sudden appearance of one Porridge, but I love training with batchies, cause we are almost all on the same wavelength. (and height, haha) And I love jiti, it keeps me alive in wushu. I really really really like our new jiti now. I really really really do.

I really really really enjoy being with my batchies. Seeing them make me smile. Seeing THAM WAN QING in what seemed like a bajillion gazillion years made me so high. Jiti also made me quite high today. (: There's something about Batch'11 that never fails to make my day.

I don't even know why I'm reflecting so much, must be leftover high? Haha, idk. It's probably because I had a sadly monotone day and in a metaphor (because I love metaphors) Batch 11 is like the colour on my blank white canvas of today. I don't remember any shit about what I learned in Chem today, but I remember all the stupid inside and outside jokes, the new moves, chatting with Blood (haha, or Snow) about teachers and him allowing us to just sit down and slack after we train, or sharing his story with us about that girly move. Or deciding our roles in Hilary's future wedding (flower girl right here). Or singing loudly in off key voices songs from Justin Bieber and Taylor Swift, all the walk from rooftop hall till bus-stop.

I love Batch'11. That's one thing I don't think will ever change. Let's chiong and perfect our jiti by the performance and then show the hwa chong people that our NYWS got standard one! Jia-jiayou ah! (:D)

And cheer up _____! Don't blame yourself too much! Learn to forgive yourself!! (:

love the way you lie.

2010-08-22T12:26:00.001+08:00

I LOVE THIS SONG. LIKE A TON OF BRICKS MUCH. :D

My JAMMMM

2010-08-19T23:25:00.001+08:00

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life…

Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman’s Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia)

2010-08-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

tumbling over at tumblr, tumble over to macaroon@tumblr. daily photos, videos, songs, quotes, texts, etc

macaroon: a small sweet cake consisting largely of ground almonds.
small = (shortness/skinniness)
sweet = (*egos*)
largely = (an irony in itself. I may be small, but im full of love.)
ground almonds = (nuts. I get my heart hurt many times and I go through many Troubles.)

(yes, it's an actual word. it's a pastry, not to be confused with macaron.)

i'll still be posting here though. (((:

2010-08-16T15:41:00.000+08:00

NPH IS GOING TO BE A FATHER. TO TWINS.

:DDDDDDDDD

tumblr~

2010-08-14T23:39:00.002+08:00

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People.
1) I know I'm only here for your entertainment. I fear that I care for you more then you care for me. And it hurts me inside.
2) Please don't leave me ever. I need you in my life. (Actually I don't wish. I can. This is for Callie.)
3) I wish I had the chance in the past to be better friends with you. To see past my own prejudices and maybe even become your best friend. You were willing to let me into your life, but I just wasn't.
4) Thank god I have you in my life. (For WQ)
5) Thank god I have you in my life. (For Vanessa)
6) You are an arrogant and selfish beyotch. Keep away from me.
7) Why aren't we as close anymore? We used to be able to talk. Now we just stare at each other in the corridor and wave. What happened?
8) I miss having you in my life.
9) Why aren't we as close anymore?
10) I wish you hadn't left. If you hadn't, we could still have been close friends. We have so much in common. If you had stayed, we'd probably be as close as sisters.

Nine things about myself.

1) I dance.
2) I roll my eyes often, just not in front of you guys.
3) I do roleplay online on livejournal.
4) Nothing's "okay" when I say "I'm okay".
5) I get suicidal, but lack the guts to actually do it.
6) I have trouble embracing change, when the past is much more pleasant.
7) I give out more love than I receive back.
8) I hate when people lie to me.
9) Most of the time, I don’t mean what I say. It usually is in the heat of the moment.

Eight ways to win my heart

1) Be yourself.
2) Hug me
3) Don't judge me.
4) Care for me.
5) A simple "I love you" would do. Not ily, ilu. the whole phrase is more sincere, isn't it?
6) Understand me.
7) Actually pay attention to every word I say.
8) Send me nice mushy messages or texts.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1) Why me and ______ are even friends, and why I care so much when she doesnt.
2) TV shows. (:
3) What ifs.
4) Memories
5) What I am going to do later
6) The future.
7) Food! ;)

Six things I do before I fall asleep.

(not in order,)
1) Pray
2) Brush my teeth
3) Off my computer
4) Check my phone
5) Brush my hair
6) wash my face

Five people who mean a lot.

(I'm doing "groups of people" unless stated otherwise)
1) Family.
2) Callie
3) WQ, WL, R, V
4) Batchies
5) 212'09

Four things you’re wearing right now.

1) hairband
2) pyjama top
3) pyjama pants
4) my heart on my sleeve ( :D )

Three songs that you listen to often.

1) Bad Romance (Lady Gaga)
2) Fifteen (Taylor Swift)
3) Hero/Heroine (BLG)

Two things you want to do before you die.

1) Travel the world. Or just a few places.
2) Fall in and out of love.

One confession

I used to have a secret aspiration to dance professionally. Now? Not so much. Quitting ballet killed it badly.

(dont ask me why i'm tumblr-ing)

2010-08-14T14:28:00.002+08:00

tumblr quote haul (from quote-book on tumblr)

If the world was perfect, it wouldn’t be. (Yogi Berra)

Do not fear death, but rather the unlived life. You don’t have to live forever, you just have to live. (Natalie Babbitt)

But when the night is falling and you cannot find the light, If you feel your dream is dying hold tight. You’ve got the music in you. (You Get What You Give)

What hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away. And never knowing what could’ve been and not saying that loving you is what I was trying to do. (What Hurts The Most)

Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now. (The Truth)

Spiteful words can hurt your feelings but silence breaks your heart. (C.S Lewis)

All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on. (Havelock Ellis)

I think it happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. And so you keep the wonderful memories but find yourself moving on. It’s perfectly normal. (Nicholas Sparks)

He is no fool who gives up that which he cannot keep for that which he cannot lose. (Jim Elliot)

The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain. (Jennifer Aniston)

Regrets are a waste of time. They’re the past crippling you in the present. (Under The Tuscan Sun)

This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something. (Elizabeth Gilbert)

Life doesn’t have to be perfect. It just has to be lived. (Dexter)

They can't scare me... if I scare them first. (Lady Gaga)

did you forget?

2010-08-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

Did you forget, that I was even alive?

And at last, all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that I've learned
I won't forget, please don't forget, about us.

But somewhere we went wrong, our love is like a song
But you won't sing along, you've forgotten about me.

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Mmm. It's a nice song.

2010-08-09T11:53:00.000+08:00

you should read
http://macaroon.tumblr.com/

Just saying. :)

faithfully~

2010-08-07T17:48:00.006+08:00

Highway run
until the mignight sun
wheels go round and round
you're~~~

Haha, I realised this song has been stuck in my head, since morning, and it totally fits with Xcountry ytd. xD (high way run, sun, wheels, etc)

So out of 3 promises, at least 2 were kept. I'm content.

I tried my best to keep the last promise though. :/ (this one sort of my fault lah, cause i was slow and you were too fast.)

and I caused Callie to break 1 (I'm sorry. D:)

2010-08-05T00:32:00.001+08:00

309 -> 308 -> Opp ION -> Orchard Central -> Cine -> KBox -> L5 -> L6 theater 4 ->*scape ->313@somerset ->Bishan MRT ->home.

crazy crazy day. (:

2010-08-04T20:52:00.005+08:00

“Look in the mirror and fix yourself up. Wash away those tears. Be strong, suck
it up. No one else can know. Paint on a smile and walk away. You’re okay, you
should be, that’s what they all see.”

somewhere from tumblr

(deleted line here.)

Like a tidal wave, everything's coming in too fast to react.

saying ay-oh,

2010-08-03T22:55:00.001+08:00

Love has tortured, love has killed, but love has saved a million still.

Just have to study acids and bases and salts ws + quiz, do practice paper, and I'll be done with chemistry.

Then I'll start on History, starting with good ol' Hitler, cause he'll be coming up the mountain (ha) in the paper.

too late to panic. gotta focus.

2010-08-03T11:18:00.001+08:00

The story of life is quicker then the blink of an eye, the story of love is hello, goodbye.

Jimi Hendrix

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